im happy rn! but then again, im not! but i am!

my friend-since-i-have-moved-here-3-years-ago asked me to my sophomore cotillion. my friend, who i dated in 7th grade until i became a real bitch and didn't stick to the commitment. (it's complicated, knowing that i just cut off contact with him [haha, i really was terrible but i apologized for it over a year ago] and didn't really officially break up with him. and although we've grew a decent amount since middle school, i know there's still something there. i mean, we're going to fancy-shmancy, and also corny, school dances with one another. but idk what to think of it.)

he asked me in front of his friends. and i was sort of disappointed. were was the effort? (the flowers! the stuffed animal! i am a true to the core romantic. which may also count as high maintenance. but only slightyly.) i liked that it was totally simplistic, but. the effort! i like effort! im a(n) [?] honors student, srsly. btw, is honors an exception where you use "an" instead of "a"? it sounds so much more right!

omg, cotillion! pretty dresses and my friends who have classy taste! dnw silly girls who dress trashy/trendy though. :(

fuck. this fanfiction is driving me absolutely insane. after constant on and off (on and off on and off on and off) occurring, i'm finally almost done with only a little over 2400 words to offer. only. after like months and months of being on. and. off.

uh, happy new year! writing more often has become my new years resolution! along with getting a job, getting my permit, cookin on a regular basis, refraining from swearing, reading a lot, being more social (and that is taking off really well actually) etc etc etc.

new years! whoo.

i really want a moleskin weekly notebook to take place of my crappy school-provided homework planner. hopefully barnes and noble still have some in stock, but i doubt it. ;__;

anyway. fanfiction is still driving me crazy. i'm stuck on yet another bump. but i will finish this, omg, ill force myself.

im getting laz with puntuation and spelling nd so im just going to go and try to figure out my problem. just needed to rant a little bit! ughhhh.